Sarah Somewhere » Discovering the beauty of an imperfect journey 2015-08-03T14:50:39Z http://sarahsomewhere.com/feed/atom/ Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[The Boy Who Could Fly]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=12247 2015-07-29T14:30:16Z 2015-07-29T14:30:16Z Keep reading...]]> One of my favourite eighties films ever. And let’s face it, there were some damn good eighties films.

Flying has been a constant theme in my life so far.

I experienced my first flight in utero, when my heavily pregnant mum traveled from the dust-filled town of Meekatharra in northern Western Australia to the big smoke of Perth to give birth to me.

Just a few months later I was on a plane heading to the other side of the country to meet my Nana for the first time.

During primary school summer holidays, my sister and I would travel as ‘unaccompanied minors’ to stay with our Nana in Adelaide, South Australia for a month of delicious silverside sandwiches, toast with apricot jam and real coke, while Mum worked as a teller at the local ANZ bank.

I would also fly around the country attending national dancing competitions, dressed in a state team tracksuit made from parachute material (it was the nineties).

I guess it kinda made sense that I would end up working as a flight attendant. I loved the forward motion of zig zagging the globe, until jet lag, apathy, addiction and some re-evaluation stopped me in my tracks.

Soon enough, I was ‘funemployed’ – back in the air again with a one way ticket to Cambodia and a vague dream about a life of adventure, creativity and meaning.

Three and a half years later and I am currently experiencing my longest stint on terra firma for some time (except for this one exhilarating exception).

Since returning from the UK in January 2013, post Rickshaw Run, I have been a land-lover, putting down some roots in Mexico which I have regularly packed into my car and toured the roads of Belize, Guatemala and the US with.

And yet, the flying theme has never been more present in my life. Since Tyrhone’s foray into paramotoring, I have been getting initiated as air traffic controller, ground engineer, crew psychologist and training support.

Boy who could fly Puerto Morelos

It has been the wildest ride yet, let me tell you.

Fear has become my most regularly felt emotion and while that is actually nothing new, the stakes are higher than ever as I now put my faith in a half-millimeter thick piece of that damn parachute material to carry the life of my beloved.

My whole life, I’ve never been scared of flying… until now.

And honestly, I don’t know that I’ll ever not be.

But like all things that are scarey, watching Tyrhone get his wings has been one of the most remarkable journeys I have had the privilege of witnessing.

It has changed me, as well as him.

We were both put through the ringer, being extremely under-prepared for the emotional, mental, physical and financial pressure it would place upon us.

We were also unprepared for how it would crack open both our lives, allowing us a glimpse of our limitlessness (which reminds me of another great film).

For Tyrhone, who grew up poor and uneducated in rural South Africa, learning to fly has completely altered his perspective on his personal power and capabilities.

Nothing has come easy for him, nothing, and yet, through not giving up, he has catapulted his life into a dimension of existence many only dream of.

He wouldn’t tell you this, of course. He thinks he just got lucky. From where I stand, then, luck must involve a shit load of heartache, hard work and determination.

It’s been a real honor to watch him transform into the man he was always meant to be.

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It’s been such a TRIP to watch this dream evolve from a pretty ‘out there’ idea (which, to be honest, I thought would die a quick death along with many of our other ideas), into a visceral reality.

It’s been so, so good for me to watch this journey unfold and to stay on the cheer leading team when I was well and truly out of enthusiasm for this obscure  – and stressful, and expensive – sport.

I’ve had my toes frozen off in Montana, almost died of heat exhaustion in Mexico and experienced heart palpitations in California. I’ve faced my own selfishness and through that, have become intimate with my unconditional love for this guy I share my life with.

I read a lot of inspirational books about the archetypal ‘hero’s journey’, but nothing comes close to living side by side with one.

Watching Tyrhone follow this dream and in the process discover his greatest passion in life has become one of the biggest inspirations on my own path.

There have been many, many low points. Times we both thought about giving up on the dream, and even on each other. But like all good movies, just when you think the hero has been beaten, something or someone swoops in to rescue him and save the day.

Paramotoring, as it turns out, has rescued us both from complacency and mediocrity.

It has encouraged me to reach further and dream bigger dreams for myself. It has encouraged me to ‘screw the expense’ when something really calls to me.

It has shown me that I can do anything I want to do, as long as I don’t give up.

Most of all, it has given me the biggest kick to see this guy have so much fun and get so lit up by something. I often say that if he were any more relaxed he’d be comatose, so to see him get amped up (and slightly shit-scared) about flying is a pleasant surprise.

God knows, he deserves every joy-filled, adrenaline-pumping moment.

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The truth is, we all do. We just have to believe ourselves worthy of a phenomenal existence and move toward it with everything we have. When we break through the walls of resistance and fear, we realize that the life we want is actually the one we are meant to live.

You can subscribe to Tyrhone’s YouTube channel here.

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[Knee Deep in Paradise]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=12188 2015-07-23T15:08:27Z 2015-07-22T15:51:49Z Keep reading...]]> It’s no secret that I love the Caribbean coast of Mexico. But it’s ‘that time of year’ down here, when the humidity and temperatures threaten to rise above my enthusiasm for the place I currently call home.

I’ve heard rumors about it being one of the hottest Julys on record, and I haven’t needed to quantify that theory formally because my core body temperature has already confirmed it.

This, however, is nothing new to me.

This time last year we were house sitting in La Penita de Jaltemba on the west coast which, we believe, was more humid than the Yucatan.

Tyrhone almost died from the humidity last year, but I kinda took it on as a challenge.

No matter how hot it gets during a Mexican summer, I do actually thrive more in heat than I do in cold. It’s just that this year there are a few factors which are adding to my ‘Summer Insanity,’ not the least of which is that our car A/C decided to quit. After several visits to the auto clima shop over the last two weeks, we were only able to get the compressor replaced today (hence me now sitting at a delightfully air conditioned cafe as I edit this).

As we are currently house sitting in Puerto Aventuras, a gated community ten miles south of Playa, I am spending much more time in my car. We live there, but my life (and my heart) continues on in Playa, with yoga classes to attend and people to meet and cheap tacos to eat.

I also run a recovery meeting in Playa on Sunday nights, which basically means I open the doors, get the A/C cranked and make the coffee.

Perspective is everything, so I know that mine needs constant vigilance.

Just so you can see just how spoiled I am being, this view from the luxurious apartment we are currently house sitting is my prize for spending extra time in my car. No, I don’t expect you to feel sorry for me!

View paradiseBut this heat, it does warp my perspective, causing me to question what I am doing at times. My old default of wanting to be somewhere other than where I am has been rearing its head, which is just my ego wanting me to miserable.

Thankfully, I know it’s tricks. Through writing, talking, meditating and a healthy sense of humour, I am able to expose it for the fraud it is.

Good friends help immensely.

My friend Justin was recently here for a month, and it was such a welcome change in the routine to chat it up with him late into the night at coffee shops and taco joints around Playa del Carmen.

Unlikely friendsI first met Justin here in Playa at a Christmas lunch in 2013, and though we couldn’t be more different (he – a chain smoking republican from Oklahoma, me – a yoga loving liberal), those differences do not prevent us from enjoying each others’ company and may actually be the reason I found myself in fits of laughter that I haven’t experienced for a while.

He even came to a yoga class one day, which almost made me fall over in shock. Of course, we had to take the obligatory photos of him for the ‘folks back home'; turban encased and green juice swilling, having ‘been converted’ by a single class of Kundalini.

JustinSince he used to live here, I knew I could comfortably talk to him about some of the things which were wearing on my zen. He listened intently, swatting cigarette smoke away with a flick of his Cartier-clad wrist, before replying in his thick southern accent:

“Guuurrrrl, sounds like you are what I like to call, ‘Knee Deep in Paradise.’ When you live through a summer here, you’ll understand what I mean.”

That was IT.

I didn’t even need an explanation.

That statement summed it up perfectly.

A few weeks before, I’d been talking to my friend Wendy whose house we are looking after. She was (justifiably) concerned about the mildew situation of her closet down here.

We were discussing how this ‘Summer Insanity’ I am suffering must be a scientifically measurable condition; something to do with the barometric pressure affecting the brain… or something.

Like I said, I have managed to keep my sense of humour around to see me through the summer blues, thanks to a community of people who well and truly ‘get it.’

Another friend of ours recently moved to Puebla for a year, and at her ‘hasta luego, no adios’ dinner she was expressing her mixed feelings about leaving Playa del Carmen after living here for more than twenty years.

Someone asked her why Playa del Carmen casts a love-spell on some people and spits out others. She replied very matter of factly: “It all depends on how you treat her. If you focus on the negative things, that’s what you’ll see. If you appreciate the good things, that is what you will receive more of.”

Pretty much sums up how life works, really, not just summers in Mexico. I may be ‘Knee Deep in Paradise,’ but honestly, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[A Moment of Clarity in Bali]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=12176 2015-07-19T14:27:38Z 2015-07-19T14:20:48Z Keep reading...]]> The following is an exerpt from week two of my ‘Journey to Shine’ e-retreat, titled ‘Moments of Clarity.’

Six months later I was on a yoga retreat in Bali. I had done yoga on and off for years, but mostly for the physical benefits and had never delved into the spiritual side much. 
 
The retreat involved long periods of meditation and I had never sat still like that before. For five days we meditated and practiced light yoga for almost four hours per day. It was very challenging for me to sit with my thoughts and feelings for so long, and yet I felt like I was getting to know myself a little better each day.

Even though the retreat had been challenging for me, I was relishing the new experience and could definitely feel some healing occurring. I was thriving in the environment of peaceful introspection and yet, whenever I thought about returning to my life in Australia, I was filled with a rising discomfort which I could not quite pin down.
 
I was working as a flight attendant for a major Australian airline and although I enjoyed aspects of the job such as decent pay and flexible hours, I was no longer happy in the role. I was forcing myself to show up with a smile on my face and I had begun to resent being at work most of the time. What’s more, I had come to believe that it was normal to feel like that.
 
I was living in a nice apartment in an inner city suburb. It was a place which I filled with soft furnishings and IKEA furniture, but I never felt comfortable there. Something was missing.

For most of my life I had grasped at the security of a steady paycheck and owning an apartment in order to appease up my fear and insecurity. But nothing worked. Nothing felt right.

I felt out of touch with who I truly was.
 
Many of my friends were getting married and some were starting to have children. I didn’t want those things, but had started to think that maybe there was something wrong with me because of that.

I loved my boyfriend and our relationship had gone through a lot of healing as a result of my recovery, but my head told me that because neither of us wanted to settle down, get married and have children, that perhaps our love wasn’t real. I wondered if in fact I should want the things that other people seemed to want.
 
One night during the retreat, our group gathered in a sharing circle around a beautiful floral mandala, complete with flickering tea light candles. When it came to my turn to share, I stared into the mandala searching for the right words for what I was feeling and what came out was this:

“I feel like I’ve been asleep and have woken up in someone else’s life.”
 
As I said those words, a powerful moment occurred in which I knew that my external life was not a true reflection of my internal one; that all my grasping for security, validation and love through possessions and accomplishments had left me empty.

In that moment I became aware that my problem was not that I didn’t want what others seemed to want, but that I had been trying to squeeze my life into a box that did not fit me.

That moment of clarity occurred almost exactly four years ago.

For those of you who have been following my writing from the beginning, you know how things have played out since then.

I no longer feel like I did on that balmy evening in Bali in 2011.

My life has been completely transformed since that night. Through a lot of doubt, fear, tears, melt-downs and leaps of faith, I am more fulfilled than I ever thought I would be able to be.

This boyfriend of mine is too.

What has been key for me has been getting honest with myself. I’ve been blessed with several of these moments of clarity in my life which have woken me up to the truth and altered the course of my life for the better.

That is why I meditate and do yoga; to connect with the guiding presence of pure awareness which exists within me.

In just over one month, I’ll be returning to the Bali Mandala resort for the ‘Return to Wholeness’ retreat.

A couple of the women who are attending were present with me around the floral mandala that night.

My Mum, one of my dearest childhood friends and many new friends will be experiencing their first retreat ever.

The countdown is on in our private facebook group and there are sixteen very excited women from Australia, Canada, the US and Saudi who are looking forward to meeting each other for a week of reflection and relaxation in one of the most special places I have ever had the pleasure to visit.

I feel very, very blessed to be able to share this experience with them all and wonder what moments of clarity they will encounter which will alter the course of their lives for the better.

There is one place available if you would like to join us. Please feel free to email me at sarah.somewhere@hotmail.com if you have any questions.

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Shine on,

Sarah xxx

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[Make it an offering]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=12163 2015-07-15T14:23:43Z 2015-07-15T14:23:43Z Keep reading...]]> How do I know if I should do this thing I want to do?

What if I make a mistake?

If this doesn’t work out, what do I do then?

How do I best serve my soul’s purpose?

I have so many questions and so few answers to them, except for that we never know exactly what we should be doing or how it is going to go.

We never know if the thing we want to do is going to serve our fullest expression or cause us to contract and crawl away with our tail between our legs.

We don’t know.

And that not knowing is a really humble, beautiful place to be.

It is a place I exist in most of the time.

At first it feels unnerving, like free falling into the abyss. I know less about my future than I ever, ever have, except that it keeps surprising and expanding me.

So now, I just make it an offering.

Any new idea I have or project I pursue – I make it an offering.

Any tricky conflict in my relationships – I make it an offering.

Any spike of pain which arises from seeing the truth of my delusions – I make it an offering.

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Make it all an offering.

I use my intellect, experience, intuition and gifts to do my best.

To take action.

To show up.

To serve.

But before I do the thing I think I should, or the thing I want or the thing which calls to me, I make it an offering.

I offer up my small (or large) action to Something Greater. I offer it up to be used exactly as it is meant to.

I offer it up in service to the Divine.

Make it an offering.

The difficult conversation, the setting of a boundary, the new job, the in-between-just-for-now job, the new relationship, the long-term relationship, the decision, the idea, the blog post, the book, the trip, the course, the facebook update – make it all an offering.

It is not up to us how our actions will be received.

It is not up to us to know the outcome.

It is not up to us to predict the future.

It is up to us to show up in service to our soul, but it is not up to us to know exactly how it will carry us into our brightest expression.

Making it an offering frees us up from over analyzing, future tripping and worry. It frees us from fear of rejection or judgement.

When we offer up our actions to Something Greater, it is used in service to that Something.

And believe me when I say that we do not need to know or understand what that ‘Something’ is.

It can be the Highest Good or Great Spirit or Creative Source or whatever concept you have (or don’t have) of the unknowable presence which moves through every thing.

In fact, when you don’t know exactly what you are offering to, except Goodness or Love, then prepare to be blown open with wonderment and awe at just how gratefully received your offering will be.

This is helpful for me because I often get stuck in second guessing whether I am actually trying to serve my self (with a small ‘s’), which how my ego defines me, or my greater Self, which is my universal essence.

This stuckness can result in not doing the things I am called to do out of fear of it leading me into separation from my essence rather than connection with it.

But it’s not up to me to know where anything is going to lead me!

Disconnection has taught me as much as connection has. Every mistake and rejection has served me and built me from within, just as much (if not more) as any achievement.

So how can I possibly only want to do things which will be guaranteed as ‘successful’ when my failures have, in fact, created me?

Start small. Anything and everything can be made into an offering. A shift at work. Asking someone on a date. A smile.

Make it an offering and let go of the outcome, because it is always received by your soul and delivered to your Source, whose divine alchemy can only transmute your offering into more light for the world.

Shine on,

Sarah xxx

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[When in doubt, this will get you out]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=12144 2015-07-12T14:01:41Z 2015-07-12T13:54:17Z Keep reading...]]> I want to share a little process I have been using whenever I am stuck in doubt and want to get out.

I gotta say, I really, really hate existing in a state of doubt. Self-doubt, decision doubt, relationship doubt and creative doubt are all states I experience and it is a really unfulfilling, unproductive and un-fun place for me to be.

Usually, I will roll around in the doubt-mud for a while, listening to my head as it tells me all the reasons why something I want to do probably won’t work, until I get so fed up of my neurosis and reach for the pen.

Of course, you can do this little exercise mentally or verbally too, but I find writing makes it more concrete for me.

When I am stuck in my head, anything which gets me out of it and into reality is a really good thing.

One thing I know is that I don’t want to live my life driven by fear. I did that for a really long time and it sucked, so today I attempt to live from love, which I believe is our true state and the natural state of the entire universe.

I figure if it is good enough for the cosmos, it’s good enough for me and may even support me to expand into my full potential.

Just the other day I was ‘in it.’ I was full of doubt about something and it was so uncomfortable that I grabbed a pen and a little notebook and wrote ‘Fear’ as a heading on one page and ‘Love’ on another, in attempt to discover the truth about the situation.

This was it:

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You might like to try this with a situation you are feeling doubtful about.

Under ‘fear’ I listed all the emotions, mental states and attitudes I would embody if approaching the situation in fear.

To translate my scribble, what came out under ‘fear’ was: ‘dissatisfaction, discontent, afraid of wrong decision, negative, critical, ungrateful, and ego – proving the thoughts.’

What comes out for you will be different, so feel free to write whatever comes to mind, even if it wouldn’t make sense to someone else. This is just for you.

Under the heading of ‘Love,’ I wrote, ‘flow, acceptance, love, the moment, trust, heart-centered, non-judgemental, faith-full and body + mind + spirit.’

Like I said, just write what comes out for you.

Immediately, I was able to see the truth of the situation I was feeling doubtful about.

This process really brought me the clarity I was seeking, cutting through the murkiness of doubt.

The voice of doubt can be very convincing. It can appear quite rational and practical, in fact.

But if, like me you believe that the truth which lies within us all is Love, and if you want to live in the flow of that energy, then stepping out of fear and into love is a process you must train yourself in.

There is nothing wrong with fear. It is a natural, evolutionary reaction to risk. It also has much to teach us; revealing the barriers we have developed in order to stay safe and protected.

In terms of our growth, however, whenever we retreat into fear and set up camp there, we simply stop growing. Stay there long enough and we experience dis-ease; mental, emotional, spiritual and even physical.

That is why being stuck in doubt feels so shitty. We are blocking the natural state of our inner universe.

Like pinching off a hose with water flowing through it, the pressure of the flow builds up and eventually bursts through.

I spent most of my life in that state of fear and doubt, until I got so sick that I finally let go and let flow.

surrender universeAaaah, the sweetness of surrender…

These days I still visit Doubt City regularly, usually when I want to try something new, be more authentic or vulnerable or show up in service to the world.

I also go there when I become lazy in my relationships and want to blame those close to me for not behaving exactly how I want them to.

This simple, easy and fast (I like fast!) process continues to lead me out of the illusion of my ego and into the truth of the loving creative Spirit which wants the best for me (and everyone else).

I hope you get some sweet relief from it too.

Shine on,

Sarah xxx

*There is a place left on my ‘Return to Wholeness’ meditation and yoga retreat in Bali next month! Is it yours?*

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[Here Goes]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=12112 2015-07-05T15:18:38Z 2015-07-05T14:31:56Z Keep reading...]]> How do I describe the indescribable?

How do I show up fully as my authentic self?

How do I share my journey in order to serve others while protecting my sacred, inner life?

How do I embrace my worthiness to live my soul’s purpose?

These are some of the questions I have been reflecting on during my break from blogging.

I haven’t really taken a break from writing, because I have been pouring myself into the pages of notebooks and notepads and the back of flyers and any space capable of holding the words my soul speaks.

NotebookThis break from writing online, however, has been absolutely vital for me.

At first, it was difficult. As soon as I committed to taking a break, I had a ten ideas of things to write about.

And yet, the deeper part of me knew I needed time.

Time to connect with my life in a visceral way; to feel it, taste it, smell it and touch it. The Yucatan is an amazing place to do that, surrounded by jungle, birds, monkeys (yes! I saw one walking down the road the other day!), ocean and crystal clear natural pools of water.

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Flags HolboxIt’s been delicious. So delicious, in fact, that after a month away I wondered if I would find my way back. But on Wednesday night, under the light of a glowing Capricorn full moon, I embraced the knowledge that I cannot shrink away from expressing myself.

Full moon capricornThroughout this time of simply experiencing what unfolded and communing with the Presence within, I’ve accepted a few things I’ve known for a while but have been reluctant to admit:

I no longer see my focus as travel blogging, per se, but rather, sharing the practices which have supported my inner discovery and transformation.

The internal journey excites me far more than the external and is what I really love to talk, share and write about (I realise I am probably stating the obvious here).

Also this:

I’ve come a looooong way, baby.

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My evolution is ongoing and remains my greatest source of inspiration and joy.

This break is the first one I have taken in almost four years and it has encouraged me to really practice the things which bring me peace.

Through meditation, Kundalini yoga, time spent with loved ones and connecting with Mother nature, I’ve been able to dive into the present moment with more gusto and as a result, I have become keenly aware of the miracle of this life.

Yoga terraceI came across this quote the other day which really spoke to me:

note to self

Let me reiterate: None of us are getting out of here alive, not as we know it anyway.

And while there is no rush, there is also no point holding back out of fear of judgement or failure.

I have come to understand from a million different sources, signs, divine inspiration, guidance and tarot readings, that my purpose is to fully embrace my inner journey and encourage others to show up for their own.

I keep asking for more guidance and clarification, but honestly, it is only my own fear which has thus far prevented me from fully stepping into my Light.

My Journey to Shine e-retreat has once again, been a healing, humbling and revealing experience for me, enabling me to see how my beautiful, imperfect journey has the power to elevate others.

Sarah Somewhere Lagoon isla BlancaMy path has taken me through the darkness of my ego and into the light of the Spirit which has existed within me all along.

It has been a sacred pilgrimage, one which will require more courage from me as I continue to surrender to my inner calling.

It’s one which I never saw coming but which reveals itself to me in the form of lessons, realizations and messages from the Universal postal system, delivered directly to my soul.

At thirty four and a half years of age (in this incarnation), five and a half years of recovery, three and a half years of nomadic existence and almost four years of blogging, I feel like I am just beginning.

So here goes.

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[Surrendering to Stillness]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=12050 2015-06-02T13:29:20Z 2015-06-02T13:26:23Z Keep reading...]]> When I was in first grade, I had an amazing teacher, Mrs Homme, who I’ll never forget. She encouraged me to start my first ‘blog,’ consisting of a scrap book in which I wrote about my life with thick crayon.

Every week I would write a poorly spelled story and she would read it. Not only that, but she would write back to me, commenting on my observations.

One week I told her about the kittens who were born under the water tank on the farm where we lived. I drew pictures of them and their big blue eyes in almost indecipherable scrawls of crayon. Beneath the picture I wrote, “the kitns r sooooooooo kyoot!”

She never corrected my spelling, but simply wrote back, “and so are you, Sarah.”

One week I delivered my ‘blog’ to her with the following words: “I dont hav anything to rit about today.”

She wrote back, “Well then I don’t have anything to write back to you!”

I have been thinking about that this week as I have struggled to find the words to express where I am at.

Like that time when I was five years old and had nothing to ‘rit about’, it isn’t that nothing is happening. In fact, the times when I don’t feel like writing are generally when the most is happening and I have have too many words to formulate a single idea.

Also, the words that are flowing through me right now are new to me. As my journey progresses and continues to expand me, so does my vocabulary of experience and I feel shy and unsure about how to express them.

On the flip side of that, I am one month into my second my e-retreat, ‘Journey to Shine’ with eighteen beautiful souls.

I am very, very comfortable in that space of connecting and sharing our journeys in a private, sacred space and right now, the internet at large seems too big and scarey for me.

Journey to ShineFilming my weekly e-retreat video…

My journey continues to lead me inward in deeper ways and I know that what I have to offer the world lies in staying true to my inner calling.

Hence, though it is the opposite of what my ego wants, I am at a place in my journey where I am called to surrender to stillness, for it is only in non-doing that I am able to hear the guidance of what I need to do.

The best things this journey has delivered to me have been things I didn’t plan for. They have come to me when I have surrendered what I think I should do/have/receive and I have instead gotten what I needed.

We have recently been given the opportunity to house sit our friends’ beautiful waterfront apartment.

If you had told me three years ago when we first set off that this is where we would be, living on the shores of the Caribbean coast of Mexico thanks to some wonderful friends we met along the way, I’d probably have told you that you were dreaming.

Stillness caribbeanSometimes I can barely catch my breath at the rate of profound change in my inner and outer life. Through both the challenges and the joys, I have received more blessings than I can count.

The things is, I know they do count. I know there is a reason for them, and it isn’t all about me. I am blessed so that I may bless others, and that is what my journey continues to reinforce.

I don’t think I will ever, ever have enough words or blog posts or facebook updates to express my gratitude to those of you who read them. This journey has blown me open in ways I never dreamed of, and if you weren’t here reading my ramblings, announcements and confessions, my journey would not be as rich and rewarding as it is.

I think that’s why I want to write to you to tell you I don’t have anything to write about for now. And also because writing to you helps me communicate in a clearer way with myself.

Knowing me, I probably won’t be able to stay away long. ‘Sarah Somewhere’ is my labor of love, my greatest creation and my life’s work. It has evolved me in the process of its unfolding and I know that there is so much more co-creating ahead.

I know today that I have a purpose, and that purpose is to evolve, connect, inspire, share and teach.

For now, though, my present involves lots of Kundalini yoga, meditation, staring at the sea, belly laughs with good friends, focusing on my retreat projects and working with some women here in Mexico who are beginning their recovery journey.

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Oh, and beaches. Lots of beaches.

I love my life today and it has more meaning and purpose for having you in it. Thanks for still being here after all these years and you will be the first to know when I feel like I have something to write.

In the meantime, you can follow me on instagram which I can’t seem to stay away from!

Sarah xxx

My ‘Return to Wholeness’ meditation and yoga retreat in Bali is just under three months away and there are still two places available! Join me and fourteen amazing women from four countries for a week of stillness, reflection and relaxation on the shores of the north Bali sea.

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[Kundalini Rising]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=11961 2015-05-18T18:59:56Z 2015-05-17T13:19:35Z Keep reading...]]> It all started in a yoga studio in San Francisco where I attended a Kundalini yoga and recovery workshop with Tommy Rosen, a teacher whose work I admire so much.

That first class made me cry. Sob, actually. It was a physical reaction to a breathing exercise designed to cleanse and detoxify the body and mind. In that moment, I released a long-held sadness I wasn’t even fully conscious of.

But actually, it started before that.

I began practicing Kundalini yoga before I even knew what it was. It was a meditation suggested by Gabrielle Bernstein.

At that time, I wanted to organize a meditation retreat in Bali and write a book and do lots of things I didn’t feel qualified enough or capable enough to do.

It may sound crazy, but those meditations cleared the way for me, through the mire of my mind, to allow both those projects to be born.

I literally breathed through the fear to allow them into being (the ‘book’ is now my e-retreat).

But it actually started before that.

Long before.

Hatha yoga, Vinyasa yoga, Ashtanga yoga, Khum Nye yoga (a Buddhist style) and even Bikram yoga.

For more than a decade I have been breathing and twisting and ommming in yoga studios around the world, and yet, I always considered myself a dabbler rather than a yogi.

Honestly, the last year of (almost) daily meditation has done more for my psyche and spirit than a decade of downward dog, but I do not discount that it all led me right here, to this moment, and to the practice of Kundalini.

Sarah Somewhere Kundalini meditation

I have two wonderful teachers here in Playa del Carmen, who lead morning classes in a beautiful palapa-style studio at ‘Posada Suuk.’

The word ‘kundalini’ refers to a coil of energy situated near the base of the spine. The practice of kundalini yoga allows this energy to rise through the chakras (energy centers), balancing them and cultivating consciousness.

Posada Suuk Kundalini

Palapa Suuk

I look forward to class so much. We chant, we sing, we breathe and we move. Most of the classes are taught in Spanish, with a few translations kindly thrown in for the English speakers, but the language of Kundalini is universal.

“Kundalini Yoga is called the Yoga of Awareness. It is a dynamic, powerful tool that is designed to give you an experience of your soul.”

This description from the 3HO website, a foundation developed to expand the practice of Kundalini in the west, sums it up better than I ever could.

Kundalini is very different different from traditional hatha yoga, and honestly, if I had walked into a class five years ago, I don’t know that I would have liked it much.

In fact, I know I was far from ready for it then. But now, I am at a point where I am willing to extend myself outside the limitations of what I once deemed as ‘normal’ to feed the deepest, truest part of me and nurture my connection with the Divine.

Which is why, when I stumbled upon an event listing on Facebook announcing a masterclass with Gurmukh, the founder of one of the largest Kundalini schools in the US, Golden Bridge, I just about fell off my chair with the serendipity of this journey.

Gurmukh Yogi Bhajan

Just several months after my first ever formal class, the Mother of Kundalini in the west and a student of Yogi Bhajan (the man who brought the practice to the US from India) came to Playa del Carmen for a one-night-only women’s workshop.

What the?

In the beautiful Yogaloft studio in downtown Playa del Carmen, I joined more than eighty women for a ‘Radiant Power of Women’ masterclass in which we sang, danced, sweated and breathed our way into our Divine feminine power and it was… magnificent.

Kundalini women

Photo by Karla Sekera

Basking in Gurmuh’s warmth and glow was a complete honor. Beneath the turban and the aura of holiness is a warm, caring and accepting woman; a woman who well and truly lives in the world and has dedicated her life to helping other people live happily within it too.

Gurmukh Yogaloft

At the workshop I bumped into one of my teachers, Karla, and found out that she was a student of Gurmukh at Golden Bridge.

The fact that I am in Playa del Carmen, Mexico, receiving the Kundalini teachings directly from those most intimate with them is such a blessing I really don’t have the words to express it.

Gurmukh Kundalini

At the end of the masterclass, Gurmukh remarked how amazing it was that in a world of seven billion people, we found ourselves in the same space.

Meeting Gurmukh instilled a greater sense of knowing in me that I am on the right path. Life keeps delivering messages about what I am meant to do and right now, it’s to keep showing up for this inner journey which continues to transform me.

I am really excited about what this new phase of it will bring.

Sarah Somewhere Kundalini

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[Journey to Shine begins tomorrow!]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=11946 2015-05-04T01:21:58Z 2015-05-04T01:21:58Z Keep reading...]]> Tomorrow I embark on a twelve week online e-retreat with a wonderful group of souls.

If you would like to be more present and mindful in your life, release feelings of fear, blame or shame and cultivate self-love in order to shine as brightly as you were created to, then join us!

I would love you to be part of this experience.

You can preview the Journey to Shine e-retreat outline here!

And please watch my video invitation to you:

Sarah xxx

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Sarahsomewhere http://www.sarahsomewhere.com <![CDATA[Journey to Shine: reflections from my first e-retreat]]> http://sarahsomewhere.com/?p=11898 2015-04-27T14:41:31Z 2015-04-27T14:33:03Z Keep reading...]]> From January to March this year, I hosted my first online retreat, ‘Journey to Shine.’ Fourteen women from four countries shared a journey of connection and transformation via the wonders of technology (namely Facebook, email, Youtube and Skype).

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As you know, it was the first event of this kind I had hosted and therefore it was uncharted territory for me. While I had written most of the content in advance, I had no idea how it would resonate with people and how they would respond in the e-retreat setting.

But I have learned that when I am called to do something with the intention of uplifting and inspiring others to their own greatness, I cannot fail, only learn.

I had a hunch that even though I was leading the e-retreat, I would also benefit from the wisdom and experiences of the other participants, but I had no idea how humbled, inspired and healed it would leave me.

Those who participated absolutely blew me away with their honesty, sincerity, vulnerability and strength.

Obviously, what happens on the e-retreat, stays on the e-retreat (it’s like a spiritual Vegas), but I can say that there were many moments throughout the twelve weeks which stopped me in my tracks and blew my heart so wide open that I felt so blessed to be able to facilitate such intimate connection.

Those moments of identification between participants are the sort of moments I live for, which can be summed up by the following words:

Me turns into we

There were several things I thought I knew before but which were completely solidified for me during this experience.

1) Connection is fertile ground for healing

Many of us isolate with our feelings of self-judgement, shame, hurt and fear, but the truth is that we all feel those things at certain times. Isolating with our feelings adds loneliness on top of it all, making it more challenging to bear.

When we see that others also experience similar feelings, our isolation lifts and we become connected to something greater than ourselves. We no longer feel alone and that in itself lightens the load we are carrying. Often, it can remove it all together.

Journey to Shine connection

2) We all need a witness to our journey

We all need another human being on this planet to witness our journey; to acknowledge our struggles, hurts, triumphs, pain and joy. We need someone to see us and to listen to us without judgement.

Many people do not have this in their lives. They have bought into the message that their journey is not important enough to be witnessed and that their pain is invalid. This leaves them crippled by never being able to show up in the world as their true selves.

It was one of the biggest privileges of my life to witness the sacred journeys of those who shared with me.

I didn’t need to fix them or change them or make them better, I simply needed to show up and say, “I see you. I hear you. I love you.”

3) Non-judgement is vital to creating a sacred space

What touched me most about the group aspect of the e-retreat was the absolute love and acceptance of all who participated. While much of the deeper sharing occurred in private (confidential) emails with me, the secret facebook group saw its fair share of interaction and I was so impressed by the love shown to every single person regardless of their beliefs.

Without needing to spell it out, we all realised that supporting each other on our different paths, rather than judging each other, promotes healing.

There is no one way to do anything and we all have something to learn from each other.

While we all had different backgrounds, beliefs and ways of relating to the world, we came together on the one thing that connects us all: Love.

The outpouring of love, support and encouragement for each person who shared themselves was truly a beautiful thing to witness.

So beautiful, in fact, that it is still going! While technically the e-retreat may be over, the facebook group is still very much in session because those who were a part of it wanted to keep sharing with each other.

I am so grateful to every single person who participated in the first ‘Journey to Shine’ and for making it the transformational experience that it was.

I feel lighter, freer and more ready to share this experience with others than ever.

On May 4 I will be beginning another journey with a new group of people.

We have a couple of males participating this time which I am thrilled about, and while the content and structure will be similar, this experience will be completely unique.

I invite you to discover the beauty of your imperfect journey with us and shine as brightly as you were created to.

Journey to Shine jewel circle

Each week we will focus on a different jewel of wisdom.

I will send 5 emails to you per week, from Monday to Friday. The first email will be a story from my personal journey. The second will usually be a reflection on the topic and the third and fourth will be practices and rituals of some kind.

The fifth email will be a video from me with some links to resources which have helped me on my path.

I will also be sending out some extra gifts, such as mindfulness meditation audios.

Each week you will have the opportunity to share your experiences with me via email, and at some point on the retreat, if you like, we can schedule a Skype session to chat about how you are going and what is coming up for you.

The secret facebook group is where we connect together and I will be posting there daily to encourage you on your journey. No-one can see who is in the group or what is posted except members. I will create an entirely new group for this retreat.

All of that, of course, is optional and if you simply want to receive the emails and observe, then that is absolutely fine too. It is completely up to you how you want to experience the e-retreat.

The investment is US$60, which is just $5 per week and you can pay however you like, weekly, monthly or in full.

If it isn’t the right time or vibe for you, I totally get that, but would REALLY appreciate you sharing the details of the e-retreat or the graphic below with anyone who you think may benefit from it.

e-retreat

Thank you all for your support and encouragement! You can sign up for ‘Journey to Shine’ here and feel free to email me at sarah.somewhere@hotmail.com with any questions.

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