I fly out to Bali on Sunday. It seems like yesterday I had the (then) crazy idea of organizing a meditation retreat, but it was a year ago.
In a week and a half, I’ll meet up with 17 women from 5 countries and drive through the heart Bali, through rice terraces and temples to the village of Bondalem where we will spend seven days in relaxation, reflection and retreat.
Blessed doesn’t cut how I feel right now. When I reflect on the group of people joining me, I am filled with gratitude, love and awe.
I know most of these women personally. My Mum. One of my dearest friends I’ve known since I was 10 years old. Some amazing souls I met on my recovery journey. A few kindred spirits I met in Mexico a few years ago and kept in touch with. Some new friends who I am beyond excited to meet.
From having the idea, to tentatively putting it out into the world to watching it unfold and attract the people it was destined for, I have learned a lot.
I believe more than ever in what I am here for and more confident in my abilities to make it happen.
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It’s also really fitting that I recently wrapped up my second ‘Journey to Shine’ e-retreat with 18 amazing souls (some of whom are also coming to Bali!).
The message of the e-retreat has resonated deeply within me this time, and every time I share it I am more sure that embracing our imperfect journey is a pathway to liberation.
I care deeply for the people I had the pleasure of working with on both e-retreats. They are SUCH talented, soulful, heart-centered beings. I saw so much of myself in them. My self-doubt, my fear, my shame. My potential.
By encouraging them to listen to their inner voice and embrace their light, I was able to do the same, and finished the e-retreat different to when I started.
It was a wonderful experience for me because to be honest, I’ve been a little uneasy on the internet lately. There is just so much ‘noise’ out there and I have become a lot more sensitive to what I read, see and hear. It’s something I will be continuing to look at so that I can create a comfortable balance for myself, but the fact remains that it has allowed me to attract a truly beautiful tribe of people who I am so blessed to be a part of.
Deepak Chopra says that technology is neutral and our experience of it is totally dependent on how we use it. I’ve learned a lot since I started writing this blog (often, painfully!) and am more committed than ever to use it to elevate, support and uplift others.
I feel that I am in a place of massive change. There is an energy and momentum brewing; the result of all the soul searching, yearning, dreaming and fear analysis I have done for the last few years.
I’ve learned that my ability to step into my light and live the calling of my soul is deeply connected to my level of self-love. I have been diving into the concept of self-love this year, practicing unconditional self-compassion for my short comings and creating healthier boundaries for myself.
It is working.
By becoming my own best friend, advocate and cheer leader, I am less reliant on the opinions of others. I am no longer waiting for permission from the world to become the connecter, teacher and healer I know, deep down, I am here to be.
I’ve learned that when we embrace our light, we encourage others to do the same.
I am also investing in myself, and have some really exciting experiences ahead that will encourage my expansion.
One of them is Bali, a place I am so happy to experience again. The fact that my sister, brother in law, two nieces and two aunts are meeting my Mum and I for a week of family fun after the retreat is an extra special bonus.
Of course, there is some apprehension on my part. I’ve changed, a lot, and it will be interesting to see if I will be able to remain flexible and centered in myself.
The imperfect journey continues, as do the lessons.
I’m really happy and excited about what the next few weeks will bring and am grateful to you all for your support so far.