How do I describe the indescribable?
How do I show up fully as my authentic self?
How do I share my journey in order to serve others while protecting my sacred, inner life?
How do I embrace my worthiness to live my soul’s purpose?
These are some of the questions I have been reflecting on during my break from blogging.
I haven’t really taken a break from writing, because I have been pouring myself into the pages of notebooks and notepads and the back of flyers and any space capable of holding the words my soul speaks.
This break from writing online, however, has been absolutely vital for me.
At first, it was difficult. As soon as I committed to taking a break, I had a ten ideas of things to write about.
And yet, the deeper part of me knew I needed time.
Time to connect with my life in a visceral way; to feel it, taste it, smell it and touch it. The Yucatan is an amazing place to do that, surrounded by jungle, birds, monkeys (yes! I saw one walking down the road the other day!), ocean and crystal clear natural pools of water.
It’s been delicious. So delicious, in fact, that after a month away I wondered if I would find my way back. But on Wednesday night, under the light of a glowing Capricorn full moon, I embraced the knowledge that I cannot shrink away from expressing myself.
Throughout this time of simply experiencing what unfolded and communing with the Presence within, I’ve accepted a few things I’ve known for a while but have been reluctant to admit:
I no longer see my focus as travel blogging, per se, but rather, sharing the practices which have supported my inner discovery and transformation.
The internal journey excites me far more than the external and is what I really love to talk, share and write about (I realise I am probably stating the obvious here).
I’ve come a looooong way, baby.
My evolution is ongoing and remains my greatest source of inspiration and joy.
This break is the first one I have taken in almost four years and it has encouraged me to really practice the things which bring me peace.
Through meditation, Kundalini yoga, time spent with loved ones and connecting with Mother nature, I’ve been able to dive into the present moment with more gusto and as a result, I have become keenly aware of the miracle of this life.
I came across this quote the other day which really spoke to me:
Let me reiterate: None of us are getting out of here alive, not as we know it anyway.
And while there is no rush, there is also no point holding back out of fear of judgement or failure.
I have come to understand from a million different sources, signs, divine inspiration, guidance and tarot readings, that my purpose is to fully embrace my inner journey and encourage others to show up for their own.
I keep asking for more guidance and clarification, but honestly, it is only my own fear which has thus far prevented me from fully stepping into my Light.
My Journey to Shine e-retreat has once again, been a healing, humbling and revealing experience for me, enabling me to see how my beautiful, imperfect journey has the power to elevate others.
My path has taken me through the darkness of my ego and into the light of the Spirit which has existed within me all along.
It has been a sacred pilgrimage, one which will require more courage from me as I continue to surrender to my inner calling.
It’s one which I never saw coming but which reveals itself to me in the form of lessons, realizations and messages from the Universal postal system, delivered directly to my soul.
At thirty four and a half years of age (in this incarnation), five and a half years of recovery, three and a half years of nomadic existence and almost four years of blogging, I feel like I am just beginning.
So here goes.