Burn it Down to Light it Up: A Ritual of Rebirth

Ever want to tear down something you created and start something entirely new? A blog you wrote, a house you built, a painting you did, a photo you took, a child you birthed… kidding.

My creative fire is burning, burning, but I feel stuck.

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I feel trapped in my own creation, cornered by judgement and expectation (of my own making).

I’ve thought about starting another blog. But why would I need to do that? I already have one.

When I was a kid I kept a diary and whenever I would read an entry from the previous week, month or year I would tear it out because I couldn’t bare the proof of my naivety.

This is the longest I’ve been able to bear it, but I’ve been getting that ‘tearing down’ feeling again.

Nothing stays the same. Everything changes.

Especially me.

So, I’m burning it all down. Figuratively.

I’ve started inviting more ritual into my life. Because thoughts are things and intentions matter.

Intentions are matter, in the process of becoming.

We are powerful creators. Sometimes in order to create, we need to tear down that which no longer serves us.

I’m surrendering it all to the fire.

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Allowing everything I thought I knew to smoulder and transmute into a different energy.

Lit Up by the flames.

I don’t know where I’m going. I thought I did, but evolution moves faster than real time. I can’t keep up so I’m gonna let it burn, burn, allowing the ashes to smoulder.

I can’t maintain something which no longer exists.

I can’t try to create something either, I have to allow that which wants to be created through me.

Prepare the space for the unfolding. Release control.

Allow. Breathe. Relax.

Throw it all into the cosmic fire.

Let it burn to the ground.

Destruction, rebirth, repeat.

Nothing in the past exists.

Every moment is virginal.

This breath is the first breath.

And so it begins… again.

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Burn it Down to Light it Up: A Ritual of Rebirth — 13 Comments

  1. “I’m gonna let it burn, burn, burn…” Had the song stuck in my head as soon as I started reading this piece! I think this is a common conundrum amongst all creative types. Nothing is ever perfect, it can always be better and we are always flooding with ideas with not enough time or space for everything! I can relate to this post so much. It’s a huge risk, any time we tear something down so we can rebuild in its place. But a risk we must take, to allow new things to grow in its place.
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    • I found it within hours!!! Through hosting the e-retreat I have learned that doing this sort of work is what I want to do, then through a serendipitous chain of events which included discussing the power of movement and dance for accessing presence in our facebook group, I did a four hour ‘5 Rhythms’ dance workshop yesterday. I only found it online the day before and the woman only comes to town a few days per year. The cogs are turning about how I can make dance a part of my life again, and I am so excited about it! Xxx

      • omg Sarah that is fantastic!!! Obviously, you are meant for this type of work… your eretreat, your yoga retreat, everything you’re geared towards is heading you in the right direction! Can’t wait to hear more about your dance workshop!
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  2. I think growing and changing and reinventing some part of ourselves is a sure sign of healthy growth. I’m constantly looking for the next thing, although it usually means I’m not living in the moment, which is not always a good thing. It took me a lot of years to get to this point where I can look back at my life and realize all the changes I made were just a part of me. I didn’t recognize it at the time, just knew I needed to change it up about every 5 years. Except for my husband and son, them I kept. 😉 I went to college when I was 33, I started teaching when I was 40, I went back to school and earned my MA, I quit teaching, I started managing, etc., etc., I hate feeling stagnate, but it took me a long time to figure that out. I just thought I was bored! So if you need to start again, that’s a good thing!
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    • Hi Patti! Good for you! I think it takes a LOT of courage to keep making the changes you need to, especially when you have a family. I think a lot of Mothers/wives tend to put themselves last when it comes to doing what they truly want, so I love that you are such a great example of someone who continues to grow, change and follow your dreams. Onward!! Xxx

    • Thank you so much Faith! So true. It is amazing to me how something as simple as a burning ritual can allow new growth to come forth. It already has in a matter of days! Thank you for reading xxx

  3. I feel the exact same way about my blog. I think I need to ritually release it so that my new direction can rise from the ashes. I won’t say too much because I don’t want to announce anything publicly before I’ve told my own readers but burning up the old is basically where I’m at. The other day I drew an oracle card and I got Kali – “The old must be released so that the new can enter”. She’s the goddess of endings and transitions, and I know it’s no coincidence she’s stepped in now.

    So what are your thoughts for your blog? Are you thinking of starting again? If so your loyal readers will definitely follow you over!

    Also, I have noticed a fire’s been lit underneath you through the e-retreat already – and it’s only been going on a few weeks. Bet you didn’t expect such a personal impact when YOU’RE the facilitator! 😀 But that’s the gift of facilitation. You can give and give, thinking it’s all about everybody else’s journey, but then you get one of your own. :)

    • I can certainly recommend the ritual, powerful stuff! And of course, I am seeing burning and fire ritual references EVERYWHERE I look on the internet, so there is definitely something in the cosmos.

      I am starting again, in the sense that every day (and moment) is new and I am attempting to embrace each one for what it brings, while allowing what is to come. I have so many ideas but of course, I am last in the queue for my web designer (boyfriend), so I just need to breathe and allow the vision to manifest. I can see you are in a similar place and all I can say is GO FOR IT!!!! Life is too short not to show up as our truest, fullest selves.

      Yes, the e-retreat has blown me away. It’s been the catalyst for some major awakenings and shown me the sort of work I want to be in the middle of. Thank you for being a part of it xxx
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