A new design and a new direction

The great thing about having a designer for a boyfriend is that you get free web design. The other thing is that you’re always last in the queue.

Behind the projects of paying customers, behind TV watching and of course, flying.

I’ve wanted to change things around here for a while. I’ve been busting to shake things up with a new design and slight change in direction but the truth is, it’s been good for me to be patient.

I’ve gone in 50 different directions in my head in terms of design, before coming back to the original one we came up with months ago.

It’s been good to take the time to look inward, to listen to my inner voice and become aware of my desires and fears. It’s also bloody brilliant to finally make it to the front of the queue and get a new website!

I am very grateful to my talented, patient boyfriend and think it is a sign of progress that we did not have one major fight during this process!

And I’m grateful I waited, because the right time is never when I think it is and always when it actually happens.

I’m also beyond grateful for my beautiful, imperfect journey which has led me here. If it had all been smooth sailing, I wouldn’t be here taking care of a beautiful house overlooking the Pacific Ocean and I wouldn’t be writing to you, for there would be nothing to write about.

Pacific-viewNothing to discover, overcome or learn from. And that would be a real shame.

It’s been quite a journey we’ve had here together over the last two and a half years. From this very first blog post, where my hands shook when I hit publish, many things have changed.

I’ve changed.

Not become someone different, but merely let go of many ideas and attitudes which were keeping me from realising my truest self. My hands still shake when I hit publish though, which I take to be a good sign.

I have let go of a lot of shame about my journey as a recovering alcoholic in the hope that it may help someone else to realise that healing is possible.

I have also let go of so many fears I used to hold inside me and can barely believe I did something like jump out of a plane.

I have learned to love more and to get out of my comfort zone to show that love, whether to a new friend, family member or my own boyfriend. I’ve also begun a love fest with my inner-most being and it’s been the greatest discovery of my life.

I have made many mistakes, which have led to many apologies. These apologies have healed wounds within myself and others.

I have begun many new friendships with this blog and rekindled old ones.

And on most days, I’ve found the courage to be myself which has always been my greatest challenge.

Showing up as the real me, who is often fearful, always hopeful and sometimes faithful has been the biggest gift I’ve given myself. The fact that you’ve allowed me to share about my challenges as well and my joys and accomplishments here has been the greatest gift you’ve given me.

The biggest lie we are led to believe from the world is that exposing our vulnerabilities to another person makes us weak. I can attest to the fact that the opposite is true.

Our strength does not come from the world’s opinion of us or the level of success we attain in it’s eyes, but from our willingness to embrace the truth which exists within us. With each step toward that truth, we are fortified with love from within, and with that love we can take on the world and change it for the better.

When we allow our true being, always luminous within us, to shine as brightly as it was designed, we help others to do the same.

Thank you for continually helping me discover the beauty of my imperfect journey. My greatest hope is that you will realise the beauty of your own.

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A new design and a new direction — 32 Comments

  1. Beautiful design and beautiful words Sarah. It is an honor to follow your journey and watch you grow and share. XOXOXOXO
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    • Thank you Kim! It’s been so wonderful to share it with you. I remember the first time you mentioned me on your blog. I did a happy dance in the bathroom. It’s been cool to look back and reflect on how far I’ve come before embracing what’s next xxx

  2. Once in awhile, I still think about how you overcame your fears and jumped out of a mother-effing plane! Just the thought of it makes me want to throw up, but you did it. And it makes me think I could do things like that too – both jumping in a literal and figurative sense. I’m glad you’ve chosen to overcome your fears and self criticism to share your journey with readers like me. It’s been an amazing ride!
    Carmel recently posted..FOR THE LIVINGMy Profile

    • And I loved it! No-one was more shocked about that than I was. I also had a panic attack at 10m when I tried diving, so that one worked out a little differently, which goes to show than unless we try something, we’ll never know. You have been such a caring, kind support to me Carmel. I appreciate you and your journey so much and I am blessed to call you a friend xxx

    • Thank you so much Ashlie, and yours is a gift to me which I am excited to discover more of (and while that may sound like I’m hitting on you, I promise I’m not ;-)xxx

  3. Oh, I completely understand how designers always place “pro bono” work at the bottom of the queue… Tony and I have been saying we need to redesign 20YH for about a year now, but it’s hard to make the time when there are actual paying jobs coming in. Hopefully now that we’re back home and won’t have to be dipping into our savings while we stay with my parents we can actually give our own site the TLC it needs!

    Love the new direction you’ve gone in and I think it’s a great new space that embodies the changes you’ve been making here over the past year. I’m glad to hear your hands still shake when you press publish because I know I’m not the only one who is often shaken and humbled by the stories you are so lovely to share with us.
    Steph (@ 20 Years Hence) recently posted..Be Here NowMy Profile

    • Thank you Steph, I have absolutely loved connecting with you. I consider you a kindred spirit and take great comfort and inspiration from everything you have shared with me xxx

  4. Congrats on the new blog design! It’s lovely! I just discovered your blog not long ago and have enjoyed reading about your journey. Keep up the great work and I look forward to following along.

  5. Love the new look, Sarah, it feels very calm and serene. I think it’s a really good reflection of where your heart is. Looking forward to continuing to follow your journey.
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    • Yes but not my head, ha!! I’ll take great comfort in the serenity of my heart when my head is going crazy!! Thank you so much Patti. Your ongoing support is a great gift to me, as are you!! xxx

  6. Love the new look! The soft pink sets such a different tone for the blog. It’s like you ditched an old skin, like a snake, and this is the new soft skin that was underneath. 😀

    I completely understand about having wanted to change the look for a while – I’m not happy with my blog theme, even though I just changed mine a little too. The problem is, every day I have a different idea about what I want it to look like. So I’ll take a leaf out of your book and just wait for the timing to be right. 😀
    Karyn @ Not Done Travelling recently posted..9 Of Melbourne’s Coolest LanewaysMy Profile

    • Hi Karyn, thank you so much. It’s been such a gift to connect with you and I appreciate your compassion and insights more than you know. As for the blog, just don’t give up. Whatever it becomes, the greatest gift you will receive is what it shows you about yourself and how it helps you transform into more of your true self. Promise :-)

    • Oh COME ON. Everyone likes you better than me and rightly so because you are waaaay cooler and care less about EVERYTHING than me :-) Thank you for my pretty site and for putting up with… well… everything xxx

  7. Looks fab Sar (and Tyrhone). Imperfect (and aware of it) is the way to go!! Being open and sharing from the heart can never be a bad thing. Lots of love x

    • Thank you Eggy! And for spelling Tyrhone’s name right you get an extra bonus point. Love right back atcha gorgeous, thank you so much for your encouragement and support xxx

  8. As someone with patience issues, I know just how you must have felt, wanting the site to be finished already. But it’s true that the right time is never when we think it is, and your patience definitely paid off. The site is lovely, as is the tag line. We are all on an imperfect journey. It’s the imperfections that make life interesting! :-)
    Heather recently posted..Riga, Latvia: First ImpressionsMy Profile

    • ‘Impatience issues’ – love it Heather!!! Thank you so much, yes, I am slowly discovering the beauty of imperfection – it brings us together by encouraging us to reach out to each other for support, and I think that is a very good thing!
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