Bring your darkness into the light

I’ve been reflecting on the transformation I have experienced in the last month (particularly) which is challenging for me put into words. Challenging here, a space on the internet I originally intended to house my travel stories, but which has since evolved into something different.

The message I get from this experience is that change and growth are necessary for us to embrace the transformation which awaits us. If I had only shared travel related stories because I deemed this to be a travel blog, my journey would not have been as fulfilling (and scary and painful and joy-filled) as it has.

Right now, in this current season of my life, I am experiencing an inner contentment that is rather new to me. It looks and feels different to the idea of happiness I have held in my mind since I was a child, and that’s because it is. I’ll be writing more about this soon for it is such a shifting, changing and unstable force on which I am resting right now that trying to explain it might just trigger the controlling, perfectionist side of my character which I am very much in a process of letting go of.

I am so grateful to this journey for calling me out of a way of life that didn’t bring me contentment into one that does.

I never felt like my life fit me, and that’s because it didn’t. My discontent wasn’t an illusion, it was a sure-fire sign that I wasn’t living my truth (even though my mind fought that notion and told me there must’ve been something wrong with me).

My life has been one which has been lived mostly in separation from my true nature. Living in separation for so long led to a destructive path, one which I have been recovering from for several years. My true recovery, however, has been in discovering who I really am.

This has required (for me) a journey of sharing honestly.

I was called to this path. It hasn’t been easy and it hasn’t always given me freedom. It has caused me to be judged and criticized (most harshly by myself).

But now, in this moment, I am free.

I have no shame, for I no longer identify with the ‘self’ who felt shame. I don’t judge myself because I accept my humanity and the way the world has conditioned me with certain beliefs and ideas. I completely forgive myself and the world, too, by the way.

Throughout this journey of sharing about my alcoholism, fear, struggles, depression and disconnection, I haven’t been fully aware of why I was doing it.

My mind would ask,”Why the hell are you doing this to yourself? Allowing yourself to be judged by so many people?” or the ever-present, “Who the hell do you think you are?”

I would read blogs by people who shared openly and claimed to have no shame and think, impossible!

That wasn’t me. Still I continued to answer the inner call to connect through sharing myself with whomever happened to read or listen.

Now, I sit here, writing to you from a beautiful home in San Miguel de Allende filled with books and Mexican crafts (which found me, I might add), without an ounce of shame for who I am.

And that is an absolute miracle.

Today, I don’t worry for people who share openly about their struggles; I am more concerned for those who don’t. Living in society which values the material over the spiritual, the ego over the true self and conformity over individuality forces us into a perceived sense of separation – it’s only natural when we live in a way which is counter intuitive to our true nature.

Society at large is not set up for contentment. If you are unhappy or depressed or confused, well I say yay for you! Your soul has already begun to see through the charade of the world, because your soul exists only in purity and truth.

It makes me happy when people open up like a new flower, expanding their tightly held petals to receive life-giving light and fresh air.

It’s all we need to do – allow our true selves to unfold in the world, transforming us and those around us.

It is the gift we offer ourselves and the world, because We Are One and what we do for ourselves, we do for each other.

I urge you to perform the sacred act of sharing yourself. Open the dusty doors of all the dark nooks and crannies and share what you find with Some One. A counselor, therapist, trusted friend or spiritual advisor. If it makes you feel any better, for any mistake you have made I bet I’ve made a bigger one!

It is an action you take to honor your Real Self, the self of all abiding love, forgiveness and peace; a self which is available to every single human being on this planet who walks a path of sincerity, honesty and intention.

Bring your darkness into the light.

Life is too precious not to, and your true nature is too beautiful to be shrouded in shadows.

Namaste xxx

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  1. Beautifully written as usual. What an amazing transformation you have had, and are continuing to have. Keep up the amazing journey called life. I’m very glad you’ve shared more than just travel here, for true sharing is what makes us all more connected.
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    • Thanks Rhonda, I’m so grateful for everything I have experienced because it makes me more compassionate to those struggling. I am eager to help them feel connected by sharing of myself. Thank you for reading xoxo

  2. Amen sister! I’m still working on that and I have a feeling it’ll be a lifelong journey to keep up with it. I, too, have looked admiringly at those who are able to share their truths without self judgment….although in recent weeks, it’s been that harsh self criticism that’s led me to rebel against myself and stand up for myself in a way I’ve never done before. So maybe I had to go down that path. The important part is straying from it and finding a new, better road.
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    • Yes, its good to know both sides, as it makes us appreciate freedom when it arrives. I say when, because if we walk this path of transformation, it will happen. Maybe not when and how we think it should happen, but as it is meant to for us. I wish you so much love on your sacred journey! Xoxo

  3. This was so beautiful Sarah! And I for one am glad that you share so openly about your transformation here. Many people only blog about their travels, and that is fine if that’s where they’re at and that’s what they want their blog to be. But I think that travel is intrinsically linked with transformation and spiritual growth. Very few people who travel long-term come back unchanged.

    Sarah, you allow yourself to become vulnerable, and open yourself up and show us your healing process. I think this touches a deeper nerve with a lot of people. Many of us out there are also dissatisfied with our lives because we aren’t living our truths, and seeing somebody have the guts to work through the crap gives us hope that we can do it too.
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    • Hey Karyn! I have actually found it easier to share about my challenges rather than my break throughs. Weird. I guess there is still the ego-self which doubts herself and worries about other people’s opinions, while my true self knows the transformation I have experienced is very real and accessible to everyone. I want to help people access their own truth, though part of me still thinks I am not quite up to the task. So when I look back and read some of the things I have shared I think, “I was honest about that, so why not this?”
      Also I think sharing about struggle is the gateway through which we walk to freedom. The thing about owning our story and all that allows us to make peace with ourselves and our past, in order to let it go with live and gratitude for the lessons it gave us. Xoxo