Driving Through Fear
|December 29, 2012||Filed under India, Rickshaw Run 2013|
Hannah and I had a rickshaw lesson back in Goa, which calmed me somewhat about the prospect of driving one across the sub-continent. If you have been following the Rickshaw Run Diaries, you will know that I have been freaking out a bit about actually having to do this really cool thing that I signed up for almost a year ago. Well, I’m happy to report that we had our first test drive in Jaisalmer yesterday, and despite a few stalls, a couple of shrieks and a multitude of F words, I came out unscathed.
Actually, I had a blast, and no-one is more shocked about that than me!
I have been very blessed to be surrounded by positive people, and back when I decided to take this on, Tyrhone was absolutely supportive, if only a little jealous that he wouldn’t have the ‘adventure of a lifetime’ he knew I was going to have. Both Kim and Hannah have remained steadfast and positive too – Kim only arrived in India for the first time two days ago, and yet when we met her on the train to Jaisalmer, she was nothing but excited to take on this challenge.
I, on the other hand have suffered numerous freak-outs interspersed with moments of faith and clarity; I wish it were the other way ’round, but at the moment that’s the way I’m built, and sometimes the negative voice that tells me I’m crazy is so powerful I believe it.
A week ago on the 21/12, I was blessed to receive a reading from a beautiful new friend who had been studying the Mayan calendar. Without trying to explain something I know very little about, the reading was based on my birth date, using one of the many calendars the Mayans developed (I thought there was just the one that ended on 21/12/12, but apparently not so!).
She told me my purpose was to be a messenger, and that my birth date was associated with the symbol of a hand, meaning that I would carry a message through my actions. She told me I was like an eagle, and could oversee situations from above (but as I am afraid of heights I am yet to fully understand this one!). Also, that I would become aware of synchronicity in my life; that every moment is absolutely perfect, and I am always exactly where I am meant to be.
She also informed me of my challenges, which were not taking care of my own needs before others, and lacking self-belief. These both really resonated with me – though I have made huge progress in both these areas, I am still prone to please other people instead of myself, and lack faith in myself and my abilities more often than I would like.
To say my encounter with this lovely woman was life-altering sounds dramatic, but I’ve been called a Drama Queen on more than one occasion so I’m okay with that. Often it takes an insightful soul to remind us of our path; to help us reaffirm what we already know deep down, and this was one such encounter I will forever be grateful for.
The beautiful Mandala she made for our rickshaw
In the next couple of weeks I will no doubt be faced with the best and worst of myself, my teammates and the people who we will cross paths with along the way. I have no idea how this is all going to go, or what I am actually capable of. But yesterday proved to me that in spite of my proclivity to be overcome with fear and to listen to the negative voice that tells me I can’t do things, actually, I can.
Hell, I might even have the time of my life.
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